Warning: This post written under the influence of strong pain killers. May contain unintelligible gibberish, unfinished and/or run-on sentences, or just plain drivel. I never imagined I would say this, but it seems I now have something in common with Rush Limbaugh: Oxycodone. Since I’d like to limit the things he and I have in common, I’m planning [...]
Archive for October, 2009
Blogging in a Fog
Posted in Journal Entries, tagged Alice in Wonderland, mucositis, Oxycodone, thrush, weight loss, Xeloda on October 30, 2009 | 9 Comments »
“The Way Things Are”
Posted in Journal Entries, Misc, tagged Lao-Tzu, Mark Nepo, The Book of Awakening on October 26, 2009 | 5 Comments »
Here’s a portion of a recent entry from The Book of Awakening (my daily meditation book of choice) that spoke directly to me. Although I’m not sure I can fully embrace the author’s message today, I have hopes that I can find my way there eventually: Be content with what you have, / rejoice in [...]
Still Starving
Posted in Journal Entries, tagged home remedies, Lexapro, Magic Mouthwash, sore throat, swallowing, weight loss on October 25, 2009 | 6 Comments »
I know some of you start to worry when I haven’t posted something for a while. I’m reluctant to say that, this past week, you would be right to be concerned. It hardly seems possible, but in some ways things have gone from bad to worse. (I’m wondering if the Captain of that QE2 I wrote about earlier was [...]
John’s Healing Ceremony
Posted in Journal Entries, Misc, tagged Alberto Villoldo, Costa Rica, Disney World, dreams, healing ceremony on October 17, 2009 | 2 Comments »
My dear friend John, who is currently in Costa Rica at his home-away-from-home (Casa Limon Dulce), recently did a ceremony for me on the mountaintop property he and Richard and Philip own there. I met John back when Kindred Spirit was first opened, and he became quite a wonderful “fixture” at our shop. He was, among other things, a [...]
Updated Appt. Schedule
Posted in Appointments, tagged colorectal surgery, colostomy, flexible sigmoidoscopy, ostomy, ostomy nurse on October 14, 2009 | 1 Comment »
Now that the treatment is over, there are fewer appointments scheduled – but the next round looks like this: Thursday Oct. 22 – Office visit with Dr. Fekrazad (blood work and follow-up on Xeloda) Wednesday Oct. 28 – Pre-surgery office visit with Dr. Rajput No date certain – Flexible Sigmoidoscopy (w/ Dr. Rajput, to assess my response to [...]
Turning the Corner
Posted in Journal Entries, tagged apple cake, feeling better, QE2, tea on October 13, 2009 | 4 Comments »
It seems a bit like trying to turn the QE2 around: once you initiate the turn, it still takes FOREVER to get the ship going in a different direction. Finally, nearly two weeks after my last treatment, I’m beginning to feel this ship starting to move in a more positive direction. I’m happy to report I actually feel a little better, I’m getting [...]
Disappointment
Posted in Journal Entries, tagged goals, Oxaliplatin, surgery, Xeloda on October 9, 2009 | 6 Comments »
[Does it ever end?] It turns out I am not done with the chemo. Yes, you read that right. I got the word yesterday that I’m to keep taking the Xeloda pills – one week on and one week off – until the surgery in November. I am beyond despondent… From the very beginning, I understood the plan [...]
Still Among the Living
Posted in Journal Entries, tagged aspens, Ensure, gas, thrush, yeast infection on October 7, 2009 | 8 Comments »
[Whew! She's finally posted something on the blog again. She must still be alive! Thank God!] It’s only been in the past few days I’ve begun to think I may still be among the living. For the past couple weeks I wasn’t at all sure as I sank lower into an abyss of pain and illness and fog. (The pain was actually my [...]
